That. Just. Happened.

Puppy Love

2012-01-30T21:08:00.003-06:00

For Christmas this year Chris and I decided to forgo gifts to each other and finally get a puppy.

For almost our entire relationship we had decided to get a Lab and had discussed, researched and debated the details. British Lab or not? Chocolate or Black? Which names could we agree on? What Breeder would we get her from?

We came across a breeder during our research that we really loved and felt comfortable with and made the decision to pull the trigger.

Our black lab puppy is expected to arrive February 6th and she will be ready to come home with us 7 weeks later. We have spent this week picking out the different things she will need...it's funny how you have to sort of prep like you're having a baby...LOL.

We have aligned on training methods and read a few books on how to train her not only to be a great indoor family dog but also a hunting partner.

We are so excited for her to be born and to go pick her up!!!

Sno Daze 2012

2012-01-29T21:52:00.000-06:00

Yesterday Matt and Jenni went to SnoDaze, their school's version of a Sadie Hawkins dance. The girls ask the guys and everyone gets glammed up and ready to party. I spent the day helping my sister get ready - and she looked amazing. She and her boyfriend Robby (who hates pictures) allowed me to snap a few before going to dinner and the dance. Matt and his girlfriend Bre had to rush off after his hockey game, so I didn't get to take any pics of them personally. Oh to be a senior in high school again...what fun!!

Robby and Jenni - Flowers by Chelle...LOL

Robby and Jenni

Sisters and Best Friends :)

Matt and Jenni

Matt and Bre

Tradition!!

2012-01-26T21:24:00.000-06:00

I've mentioned in past posts about how I force Chris to welcome holidays with me in traditions that I hope to continue for the rest of our lives. Much like pumpkin carving, I have always wanted to make a gingerbread house together. In past years I even bought one to then never decorate it because Mr. Scrooge wouldn't participate. I should have kept it instead of tossing it because Amy had done the same thing and just used the old one and it turned out fine.

This year, I succeeded in getting him on board and we created what I believe to be a very cute gingerbread house. Ok, I'll be honest, he was mostly in charge of the construction portion and helping direct where to place things. (The wreath on the sides was completely his idea). I loved it and was excited to begin this new tradition. And after he did it once, Chris enjoyed it too so next year should be struggle free!

30

2012-01-25T21:53:00.003-06:00

Now that I've absorbed the fact that I'm 30, I've thought a lot about what that really means. It's no longer scary to me. It doesn't make me feel anxious to say "I'm 30" And I think I know why. I let go of all of the pressure I was putting on myself about being 30.

I came across a quote that really spoke to me;

“We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” – Joseph Campbell

I couldn't agree more. There is so much out there for me to still accomplish and achieve - so much to look forward to. I'm slowing down, relaxing and allowing myself to be excited about being 30.

Sports Jam

2012-01-24T21:38:00.000-06:00

My brother, Matt, was featured on Sports Jam - a local cable show about High School Sports in the community. Matt had broken his leg not once, but twice last year, keeping him from playing hockey for his entire junior season. Click here to watch the feature. If you fast forward through the clip his portion starts about 13.29 minutes in. I'm very proud of him and how he presented himself!

Feliz Navidad

2011-12-26T20:57:00.000-06:00

This Christmas was awesome because I really felt the joy of the season. Granted, I didn't do our shopping well in advance, but I tried a new approach this year and it was magical - online shopping!! Amazon.com became my new BFF. Now that I've done it, I don't think I'll ever go back! It was so beyond cool to not have to fight the insane crowds and waste time going from store to store. I just clicked, researched, ordered and paid. AMAZING!!!!

Aside from gift giving and receiving, the time with family this year worked out perfectly. Friday the 23rd was spent with my parents, brothers, sisters and nieces.

Christmas Eve was spent with Chris' mom and grandma.

Christmas Day was spent with my Dad's family; Grandma and Grandpa, my Uncle and Aunt, Cousins and my parents and siblings.

I felt so fortunate to be able to have that time and appreciate the health and happiness I've been blessed with. Here's hoping for the same happiness and love in 2012 :)

The Dirty 30

2011-11-08T10:17:00.002-06:00

So I turned 30. It wasn't that big of a deal. I only had two slight breakdowns.

The first happened the week before my birthday while I was out to eat with Chris, his grandma and his mom Joyce for her 65th birthday. Keeley called me on her way home from North Dakota just to tell me that I had a week left if I wanted to donate my eggs...because after you're 30 no one will take them. Yup. I maybe shed a tear or two because I felt old. And cause I still intend on using them at some point and if they're no longer wanted by the medical field then what's to say they'll want to work for me. Dumb I know, but I'm not rational.

The second happened when Keeley brought me a coffee to work the week before my birthday (the day after the egg incident) and said "Happy 1 Week til you're 30 Coffee!!!" Very sweet. Suuuper thoughtful. Total panic. I promptly asked her to lay off just a pinch until closer to the day. As in THE day.

I took the day off - just because. Work owed me the day anyway since I've been working my ass off. I laid in bed pretty much ALL DAY and it was everything I could've hoped for. Dinner at Benihana and a sweet card from Chris, the day came and went just like any other day.

I don't feel older. I don't think I look older. I think it is just that number that is hard to swallow.

I remember when my dad turned 30...because I WAS NINE!! That is insane to me.

I know a lot of the negative thoughts surrounding 30 are because of plans I made for myself. Goals. All of those stupid arbitrary deadlines girls give themselves that make them feel depressed when they aren't met. Marriage, house, kids, career, ideal body, $$...all of those things that are built in your mind to achieve by 30.

I'm trying to look at it as how much I have to look forward to. Focus on all that I've accomplished up to this point.

It's ok to wallow...but 30 isn't that bad. Especially when I get to celebrate with all of my friends soon!

Happy Halloween

2011-10-31T11:03:00.000-05:00

Every year I make Chris carve pumpkins with me. And not the sissy easy jack-o-lantern, but the intricate, difficult patterned ones that frustrate the hell out of you if you don't get it right.

When I was a kid, my dad always enjoyed carving pumpkins. I woud make him scrape out the insides and remove the gooey mess. Now that I'm a big girl, I do it all myself.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Chaperone

2011-10-30T01:26:00.005-05:00

I remember a time when Halloween weekend was the best party weekend of the year. Many a fun time was had at the Appeldorn's BOOzetacular Bashes. As you can see below, we knew how to party.

This year, however, my sister wanted to have a Halloween party and my parents were scheduled to be out of town for my dad's annual work trip, which meant that I would have to chaperone. No partying for me.

I. Feel. Old.

There were 37 cars in the parking lot behind my parents house and everyone from LMFAO, Black Swan, The Swan Princess, a nun, a gay cop, a dude from Harry Potter, a slutty devil and a football player were in attendance. There were about 80 kids packed into my parents house and I walked around picking up after them like I was 87. I felt so weird and out of place. But, most importantly, my sister had a blast. I guess my partying days can commence next year when we pick the Halloween tradition back up :) Party at the Rotells!!!

The History Of Rap - Parts 1 & 2

2011-10-28T23:59:00.001-05:00

When I saw the History of Rap Part 3 on Jimmy Fallon tonight, I couldn't stop laughing...so I thought I'd share the 1st 2 with you :)

Little Lindsers

2011-10-16T14:28:00.000-05:00

It had been a very long time since I had seen my niece Lindsey, so I was so happy when my brother, April, Taylor and Lindsey came to stay the night at my parents. I cried when I held her at first because she'd gotten so big! She has a tooth, she crawls and pulls herself up to stand - it's amazing! I got a lot of good cuddles in, though, and it melts my heart to be able to hold and kiss on her :) She is too cute for words!

(Almost) 30 and NOT Pregnant

2011-08-30T01:06:00.000-05:00

I'm almost 30. Suck!

Being almost 30 and childless must be unheard of because I literally am asked multiple times in a week if I have children. Once I reply no, I'm asked why. Seriously I have had people say the following;

"You were the one in high school I always thought would have a ton of kids. I never wanted kids and I have one. Don't you want kids anymore?"

"Are you just not going to have ANY?"

As if I'm a freak of nature. Maybe MTV should make a reality show about me.

VACANCY!!

2011-08-23T21:03:00.000-05:00

The weekend of June 18th Keeley and I went to Duluth to support our friend Sara who decided to run in the Grandma's Marathon. 26.2 miles. She was dropped off in Two Harbors and had to RUN to DULUTH. Why she chose to do this remains a mystery to me, but to each their own I guess.

Keeley and I felt it was the perfect opportunity to get our drink on.

We (and by we, I mean Keeley) had booked our hotel room when she was only a few months pregnant. I handed over my portion of the $$ and forgot about it. Until I was driven into the parking lot.

HORROR.

I truly felt like I was about to live out my own version of the movie Vacancy. Completely and totally NOT JOKING.

The lobby of this place had a window in which you passed your money through. As we checked in I realized why people must choose to stay here...either they are setting the stage to be a feature on the show Intervention or for the one free cup of coffee in the morning. Yes, you read right, ONE cup of coffee.
When we got to our room, it got worse. As we opened the door we were assaulted with the odor. Cigarette smoke like you wouldn't believe. It honestly smelled like every single smoke that my grandma had had in the last 40+ years. It permeated my hair, my clothes...everything. It actually made me sick.

We attempted to call every hotel in Duluth to find a different option, but of course, all hotels were booked since thousands of people are in the city for the event.

There was nothing to do but make the best of it, so in our Rowitz fashion, we decided to get as drunk as possible in the hopes we would not be able to smell the smoke and just pass out.

We succeeded in the first part of our mission, but no amount of drunk could hide the stench.

We woke up hungover and ready to watch all of the suckas doing physical activity while we ate donuts and drank orange juice...yum. We had emails sent to us to track where Sara was and we first met up with her at mile marker 19. She was running and doing such an amazing job. Her face lit up when she saw us and we jogged beside her for awhile in order to cheer her on and chat. Then we went to the finish line to be able to scream and holler for her when she finally finished.

The picture below is immediately after she crossed the finish line in 5 hours and 25 minutes. It was an amazing experience and I felt so happy to be able to be there! We will definitely go again next year...to drink and watch!!

Adele - Don't you Remember

2011-08-20T15:54:00.000-05:00

Thank You Benjamin Franklin!

2011-07-19T19:12:00.008-05:00

This year for the 4th we went back to my uncle's cabin on Gull Lake. The difference, this year, was that we did not spend the weekend with the Witzels. We have had a tradition for the past 4 years to spend the 4th together, whether we go camping or to Kee's parent's cabin or my uncle's. It was kind of weird to not be celebrating together, but we were sure we'd have a good time regardless.

Friday afternoon, Chris, my sister Jenni and I headed up in the good ole Saturn to enjoy the weekend. We made it to St. Cloud when the weather turned ominous.

It was crazy. The sky turned black and golf ball sized hail started pegging my car. The worst part is that my wiper blades are broken. Thankfully we had applied insane amounts of RainX to the windshield so we could see very well. The rain was thick and the wind was up to 65 miles per hour. Here is the dialog in the car between me and Chris;

Me to Chris: "This weather is extremely dangerous and we're passing the first gas station in 10 miles. Don't you think you should stop? Everyone else in Northern MN thinks it's a good idea."

Chris to me, "Um, I'm trying to beat traffic, and there's a bar in 9 more miles that is much safer."

What's worse, the fact that he knew the distance to a bar in Rice or that he'd risk my life to get there?

Thankfully we were safe and made it there in one piece. We really enjoyed our time hanging out with family, playing games and boating and soaking up the sun. It is amazing for me to be around our nieces, Taylor and Lindsey, and spend quality time together since they live so far. I think Lindsey looks like she could belong to us...she's so sweet, I might have to snatch her. :)

Take Me Out To The Ballgame

2011-06-29T18:33:00.003-05:00

I went to a Twins game last night with Chris, my parents and their friends, the Meyers. My dad got some really good seats above the dugout on the third baseline - the best seats I've sat in to date, which is saying a lot because I get some pretty amazing seats from clients. Anyways, Chris and I got the amazing seats and my parents sat up behind home plate with the Meyers.

Towards the end of the game, Chris and I went up to say hi to the rest of our group. When we got there, my dad gave me his seat so I could chat with my mom and he and Chris went to stand behind us. As I was sitting talking to my mom, I noticed the person sitting to my left. She was wearing a cutoff Twins t-shirt (no sleeves, people) and sweat shorts that ended just above her knees. She had really short hair with a feather in it. She had that angry-do-not-talk-to-me aura, and I immediately decided to not to talk to her.

Let me say that most of the people at games are in a good mood, have the MN nice thing going and are all ready to party and enjoy the game. I usually make a few brief comments (small talk) when I sit next to someone at a game whom I don't know. Much as you would on a plane - polite but not incessant so that the person you're talking to is silently wishing you'd just shut up. TRUST ME, I've been there.

So, judging her vibe, right or wrong, I decided to mind my own biznass and talk to my mom.

As I was talking, I looked at my mom to my right and pointed to my left to show her where we had been sitting at a different game, and the feather headed lady next to me smacked my arm. I'll break it down again - SHE SMACKED MY ARM. She didn't say anything, just smacked me.

I was so stunned that I didn't say anything. I was rendered speechless. I sat in silence for about 5 minutes.

I then started really feeling heated - I could feel the anger building up inside me, but at that point, it was too late. The moment had passed and all I could do was move a little further away from her and talk to my group, telling them all about my experience.

Would it have killed her to say something, anything, how about EXCUSE ME. But to hit me??? Wow.

So I did what any self-respecting adult would do - mocked her behind her back and took a photo.

Hit that Feather Lady!!!

Double Your Fun

2011-06-13T19:57:00.001-05:00

Update

2011-06-11T09:01:00.004-05:00

This has been the longest stint of absence in my writing in my blogs history. It is so hard to sit here now and think about where to start.

It's no secret that things have been insanely busy lately. I'm becoming one of those people who feels overwhelmed by how much work has consumed my life. Throw into the mix that Chris has been coaching Little League and is gone 5 days a week and I work even more. No fun!

Throughout all of the work I have been able to do the following;

Celebrate Tim's graduation

Celebrate O's 3rd Birthday (where does the time go?)

Watch the twinners and spend quite a few nights as Keeley's night nurse

Spend more time with my niece, Lindsey

Spend time with my friend Lindsey

Visit with Carissa and Grayson

Clean my house

Join a book club

Sounds like an exciting life, huh?

In all seriousness, times haven't been the best lately. I've struggled with feelings of unhappiness...I think because my work consumes so much of my life. If you think about it, your work is where you spend the majority of your time on earth. Depressing. It's not that I HATE it necessarily, but it is hard to have a work/life balance and the stress can become all consuming. It makes me crabby at home, it makes me exhausted and I don't like that I'm that way.

Where does that leave me? I've come to the conclusion to really invest in myself and find things I enjoy doing that is only for me, aside from work. Chris and I have talked about doing things together, once he's done with baseball. Things we haven't done before. I'm excited to start that and to work again on finishing the little touches on our house. I am also hoping the summer will kick in and the weather will be nice so we can enjoy the outdoors and do a little camping.

I have a lot to look forward to this summer and can't wait to start investing in myself...maybe. Time will tell!

Blog Writer seeks Wireless

2011-05-05T18:50:00.003-05:00

So it turns out that not having internet access at home really kills my blog writing.

Who knew?

Ever since we moved we have not gotten the internet set up. Maybe because I've been busy. Maybe because part of me is enjoying not being able to work when I get home. You can take a guess at which one it is... :)

But, it has kept me from writing here which is a bummer for me because I really enjoy it. I miss being able to write out my thoughts or record what I've been doing so I can come back to it later.

I guess it is time to bite the bullet and get it taken care of...

Happy Birthday Babens!!!

2011-04-26T18:55:00.004-05:00

For Chris' birthday we caught a Twins game in my client seats - it was awesome! We had a really great time sucking back the smuggled in vodka that we poured in our Cokes :) It was really fun doing something like that just the two of us.

**And, yes, that is Chris. I know you were thinking it was a member of the Amish brotherhood but you would be wrong. This is something new he's working on and no, I am not a fan.

Babies, Babies Everywhere!!!

2011-03-29T21:08:00.006-05:00

What a total surprise!!!

My good friend Carissa gave birth to her baby, a son, much earlier than her due date of 4/16/11. It was crazy because just this morning I was thinking how I didn't get in on the pool to guess when the baby would be born and how I was sure it was a boy but thought he'd be born on April 12th. I was completely shocked when I received a text from Carissa with the details announcing the arrival of Grayson. I am so excited and happy for Carissa and Andrew and can't wait to meet little Grayson tomorrow.

Grayson Leo

3/29/11 at 6:30 AM

6lbs 8oz and 20 inches long

It's Amazing

2011-03-29T20:39:00.003-05:00

It is truly amazing how much love you can feel towards someone so small. Seeing Regan and Weston doig well and getting stronger is the best feeling. Not only are they tiny and new to the world, but they were born to amazing people who I am lucky to call best friends and family.

Welcome to the world Regan Paige and Weston Matthew - I'm so excited to be your auntie!

Family Time

2011-03-27T20:56:00.003-05:00

Even though my brother Jason, April, Taylor and Lindsey live in Sioux Falls, I've been very lucky because I've gotten to see them frequently - especially since Lindsers was born last month. This weekend, they were able to come stay at my parent's house and Chris and I were able to spend some time there and I was SO excited to spoil my littlest niece :)

It is really amazing to see my brother have a child. He has been a father figure to Taylor and has been absolutely amazing with her, but to see him with Lindsey from the day she was born has been an emotional experience. She looks so much like him and he is so sweet with her - it just melts my heart.

The cuddles that I was able to give her this weekend were priceless. I love her soooo much and miss her now that she's gone :)

Table for 21

2011-03-26T23:24:00.000-05:00

Tonight we went out to dinner to celebrate Amy's graduation. It was definitely an event to celebrate and I am so proud of her for all of her hard work and determination. We met at 5:30 at Granite City and boy, our group is quite the sight to see when you factor in all of the children! There were 21 of us in all - Carissa, Andrew, Adalyn, Amy, Troy, Sevea, Me, Chris, my sister Jenni, Lindsey, Sam, Keeley, Matt, Erin Claire, Tim, Olivia, Stella, Vicky, Tim, Parker, Hunter. We realized during this dinner that Matt and Keeley's twins weren't there and soon a Zimmer baby and a Appeldorn baby will be added to the mix. Craziness!! It's fun to see our family grow and expand, but it is a lot of work to make it through a meal in peace. I love the crazy chaos and can't wait to someday add my little ones to the mix :)

Two Years

2011-03-21T22:04:00.002-05:00

It has been 2 years today since Chris and I got married. It is crazy how time flies, although I feel like we've been married forever...I guess that's what happens when you've pretty much been with the same person for 15 years.

I think it is important to celebrate occasions like anniversaries, but this year we decided to keep it low key. It was kind of disappointing since we went to Lutsen and Grand Marais last year as well as right after our wedding, but since we bought the house and are about to have Chris' family here, we need to be conservative with our money and time.

Bring on the movie and Chipotle. We went and saw the Lincoln Lawyer (which was good) and then picked up Chipotle and brought it home for some cuddling and night time TV. It was nice because we haven't had much time to just sit around and talk and hang out lately

It doesn't really matter what we do - I just feel fortunate to be here together 2 years later, happy, healthy and in love :)

Double Blessings

2011-03-17T13:50:00.000-05:00

The twins are here!!!

Regan (baby girl)
Born 3/16/11
7:26 PM
3 pounds 13 ounces
18 inches long

Weston (baby boy)
Born: 3/16/11
7:27 PM
3 pounds 10 ounces
17.5 inches long

Both babies are doing well and breathing on their own - no oxygen required!

Keeley is doing great and maintained her sense of humor throughout the whole thing. I'm so proud of her - it just makes me tear up thinking about it.

Matt is doing great - was completely and totally supportive and, thank god, in town this week!!

More to come...just so THANKFUL!

Crazy Lazy

2011-03-14T15:30:00.003-05:00

Things have been so crazy lately and I have not had much energy for anything besides work (which is exhausting in itself as I've picked up 3 new clients) and finishing up the house. It is a TON of work making all of the decisions and coordinating deliveries, construction, destruction, restruction...lol! I feel sad that I haven't been able to pour as much into my blog as I usually do because it is such an amazing outlet for me and it helps to look back and remember what has happened. I have become blog lazy!!

So now for the updates;

Kee's shower turned out great on the 5th. There were a ton of people there and she got so much stuff for the babies - it was awesome. ECF and I kept it simple - egg bakes, sausage meatballs, fruit salad and punch. I helped put together all of the toys/bouncer/swing contraptions and then Kee and I worked on organizing the babies' rooms. It is crazy how soon their birth is coming up!

Carissa had a great shower on the 12th. Even more people showed up for hers and she got great stuff as well. I made a few different pastas and Amy made amazing cakes and of course, Kee made cupcakes. Yum!

Later in the evening Chris and I headed up to St. Cloud to celebrate April's birthday and to see Lindsey (especially since it would be her first time meeting Uncle Chris!)

This picture below is just proof that I'm crazy as an auntie (I wanted to see what her view was like..lol.)

I feel very blessed to share in such exciting times in my friends and family's lives. I'm so thankful :)

It's Like That...

2011-03-13T15:28:00.001-05:00

She already has such great taste!!!

Introducing...

2011-02-16T14:16:00.002-06:00

Lindsey Mariah

Born on February 15th at 12:15 PM

8 pounds, 20 inches and absolutely adorable!

So excited to be her auntie :)

Sassy Sister

2011-02-02T20:03:00.000-06:00

This picture is everything I love about my sister :)

Lost and Found

2011-01-25T19:51:00.004-06:00

B videotaped our wedding for us almost two years ago. We have not watched it...mostly because I couldn't find it. Keeley took the original tape and tried to transfer it to a cassette tape so we could watch it old fashioned style - in the VCR. Unfortunately, that tape didn't work and then I promptly lost it and the original. Oops, my bad.

Another missing item I have been searching for - my charging cord for my Walkman. I love my Walkman, it was a gift from Chris and it's so tiny and cute and perfect. It holds all my fav tunes and unfortunately, I've been unable to use it for months because I couldn't find my charger cord.

I lose things frequently, not because I am disorganized (or at least I'd like to think not completely because of that) but rather I have no where to put anything. I am excited that all that is about to change hopefully soon when I have my OWN office and storage space with places to put things!

One of my classic downfalls is plastic bags. I have a TON of Target bags filled with random things from times I've gone somewhere and brought things with me. I just KNEW if I could have some alone time without Chris around, I'd be able to find the tape. I've tried looking a few times, but it always annoys him when I rip through things and search for too long.

Tonight I was on my own and on a mission to find my wedding video. I searched through our collection of videos, DVDs, plastic bags, boxes and bins. Then I searched some more. Nothing. Finally, in a last ditch attempt I lifted up our camping pack and looked through a milk crate of summer clothes and...lo and behold, a plastic target bag holding our wedding video, my walkman charger and some wedding pictures. AWESOME!!

I SO knew that's where they were. Honest.

The Power of the Shath

2011-01-21T18:34:00.004-06:00

I don't think the Shath gets enough credit. It is possibly the most amazing thing to happen in a bathroom. Not that there's a lot of rivaling activities in there most of the time, but...

What I'm trying to say is that the Shath is not given it's appropriate amount of props.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with the Shath, it is a shower/bath. Simple, yes. To take a shath, you must turn the shower on and then lay down in the bathtub. GLORIOUS.

I am a big bath fan as well, but eventually the water needs to be warmed again, and unless you are fortunate enough to have a big deep bathtub, it doesn't allow your entire body to be completely warmed at all times. Solution: SHATH!

The shath is a cure for the most serious of ailments; a bad day at work, a sore body, and a hangover. The only possible downfall is when you fall asleep/passout in the shath...I haven't personally experienced this but have been told that cold water doesn't feel to nice to wake up to.

Shath with caution and enjoy!!!

Happenings

2011-01-18T18:37:00.002-06:00

It has been a very busy month so far. What has been happening??

Ever since we closed on our house, we've been going non-stop in the effort to remodel everything and make this place ours. It has NOT been easy or quick, but we're liking the results so far. The upstairs is almost complete; the painting of the bedrooms and bathroom is done, the woodwork has all been painted white, new light fixtures and ceiling fans have been installed, the tile floor in the bathroom is about to be laid and the carpet is being installed on Monday. The main level is next on the list; our wood floors are waiting to be installed, the new cabinets and countertops are on order and the living room is painted. Whew, it is exhausting just writing all of this!

Aside from the house, I've been keeping busy at work, planning baby showers, and becoming more involved with the March of Dimes. This year, MOD has asked me to be part of the MN Statewide Family Teams Committee for March for Babies. My main responsibility is to recruit family teams for the walk, find out why they wanted to get involved in March for Babies, talk about fundraising goals, and how they will achieve those goals - mainly be a support system. I'm excited to be able to get more involved and have something to focus my time and attention on other than work. I am in the process of planning a fundraiser for the event in the hopes that our team will raise some serious money this year - it will be held in April and is called Beers for Babies (you know you want to come!!)

If you're feeling generous today, please visit the banner at the right side of my page and kick the March of Dimes some cash - no amount is too big or small. It goes to a fantastic cause and I thank you so much!

Oh Na Na - What's My Name?

2011-01-10T19:48:00.001-06:00

My husband is a complete and total addict to catchy songs. It is SUPER annoying. A good example of this is Ke$ha with her sparkly eyes, lips, face paint and trash bag wearing self. She comes up with the dumbest, most addictive songs and the radio stations find it necessary to play them every 7 minutes. Ke$ha isn't alone, Rhianna is also guilty of the catchy song, and has become the newest obsession everytime Chris gets in the car. I like Rhianna, but I would never change the station I was listening to in the hopes that her song, "What's my Name" would be on. Oh, and 97% of the time, it is. And if it is, Chris finds it. And sings to it. Loudly.

I am almost wishing that his obsession with Kelly Clarkson was back in full force.

Almost.

Happy New Year 2011!!

2011-01-01T20:01:00.000-06:00

It is crazy to me that 2010 is already over. I honestly feel like it just began. I feel like I've been frozen in time or something.

So much has happened for me in this past year - I was promoted, changed positions and responsibilities and felt more fulfilled at work. Chris and I said goodbye to his dad in a memorial service in March. We went to Mexico, moved his grandma from Red Wing, bought a house, prepared to be an aunt and uncle - and it seriously all feels like yesterday.

Last year, I wrote this. I read it again tonight and realized that when people kept saying things would get easier - it was true. The pain of loss is less raw, but it still lingers. Somedays it is more intense because the desire to talk to the person you're missing doesn't go away. But we've grown stronger together because of this. Chris is able to talk about the happy moments and not dwell in regret and sadness.

We've accomplished our goals for the year and we feel happy where our lives are leading us as we embark on this new year together.

I have high hopes that this year will be a great one, and wish you the best as well.

Happy New Year!!!

Weddings, Babies and Booze

2010-12-28T20:40:00.002-06:00

As most of my friends know, Keeley is pregnant - and I am finally able to talk about it now after keeping the pregnancy a secret since August 21st and not really saying much until Kee and Matt were ready to share with the world.

Keeley has told her story, but I would like to share mine.

August 21st, 2010 - 9:00 AM

Matt and Keeley come and pick us up to drive to Melissa and Mark's wedding. They are late and I am grasping with why because Keeley looks like hell. Her hair is frizzy and sticking out all over, she has no make-up on. I am wondering if she is realizing that she is about to be performing a wedding. I could understand if they were late if she had been primping, but clearly, that was not the case. So I asked, "What's the deal? Why are you so late when you still look (hand gesture pointing at her) like this??"

*side bar - I know this sounds bitchy, but this is how Kee and I roll.

Keeley looks at me and ignores my question and starts talking about how she's hungry and requires breakfast. I don't let her get away with this and again ask, "Hello?? Do you hear me? Why are you late? You're clearly not ready and I know you've been up since before 7 because you texted me. What have you been doing?"

Keeley stutters and then quietly says, "taking pregnancy tests."

I get excited and say, "really?? AND???"

"I'm pregnant!"

And of course excitement ensues and I hug her and get teary eyed and uber pumped for her. I then realize this newfound pregnancy is going to be a lot of work for me to mask while at this wedding, which is made up of a few colleagues from work. Everyone is going to expect Keeley to drink her fair share of the 1.75 of Jeremiah Weed that was specially purchased by the bride for us. Now I'm going to have to mix her fake drinks and drink more of the bottle to keep up appearances. Good thing I don't have a problem with binge drinking.

I feel we did a fairly good job of convincing people that Kee was hammered (see pics below) You be the judge. The bride thought that based on these pics we were "wasted."

Based on our superior acting skills, I think our talents are being wasted in our current positions - we are so Hollywood material.

Surprisingly, this is where the story takes an unexpected turn into pure insanity.

October 7th, 2010 - 9:00 AM

I am aware that today is Keeley's first doctors appointment and I text her good luck wishes beforehand and she texts me back about being nervous. I say, "Don't worry, they'll find a baby in there - after all, you took 14 pregnancy tests!! Something is bound to be going on! Make sure you call me as soon as you're done."

At 10:30 I still haven't heard anything and I am thinking that hopefully she is just calling her moms and will be calling soon. Just as I'm about to text her to check in (because I'm a freak) I get a phone call. Keeley says, "Are you alone?" to which I say "no, but I can be." And then I run to the nearest conference room and ask if everything is ok to which Keeley says, "Everything went well and both babies are doing fine!"

"SHUT UP!! Ha ha! Very funny!!!"

"I'm serious! Not joking!"

"Yeah right - no way, are you serious?"

"Yes, I swear, no lie - having two."

"OMG!!!!!"

Hyperventilation. Tears. Crazy Laughter.

I couldn't believe it and I felt like hysterically laughing all day. The best part is when Keeley asked if I wanted to come to her next ultrasound so I quick left work and went with her to the ghettos of Minneapolis where they could fit her in for another look at the two little bambinos. It was so awesome to see their little hearts beating and see them in there, I felt like crying because I was so happy to know that they were ok and that Keeley finally got what she was hoping for: to be a mom.

The best part is knowing that I get to be their auntie :) And of course, laughing at Matt and Kee while they figure this all out!!!

Maury Christmas!!!

2010-12-24T00:54:00.001-06:00

Torii The Black Nosed Puppy

2010-12-22T21:46:00.001-06:00

I love my puppy! She looks just like a little reindeer!

I Hate Christmas Shoes

2010-12-18T16:32:00.001-06:00

I love Christmas but I have always had some issues with Christmas songs. I can't stand how they've started being played earlier and earlier every year. Add to that the fact that I have sung every carol imaginable multiple times, in multiple arrangements, I feel a slight distaste because I am kind of sick of them. Don't even try to sing Sleigh Ride around me...I will cut you. J/K of course, but you can understand my frustration...

The worst of all these songs is Christmas Shoes. I HATE this song with a passion. Always have, always will. I constantly bitch about the horror of this song. Whoever wrote it deserves a quick, swift, unexpected punch to the face. I understand trying to remind people to live their lives for others, to appreciate what you have, blah blah blah. But this song pushes it too far.

Just when I thought I was alone in my hatred, Patton Oswalt mirroed my exact thoughts (about the song, not about religion) in a stand up routine. Enjoy and Merry Christmas!!!

Happy Birthday, Papa Bear!!!

2010-12-11T21:49:00.000-06:00

One Year Ago Today

2010-12-11T06:00:00.009-06:00

A year ago today, it was a Friday. I left work at 11:30am. I went to look at a house in Shakopee. I talked to Chris on the drive home...I really liked this house. He left work early to meet me at home. We were excited about being done early from work, and about being with my family for my dad's 50th birthday. It was going to be a really fun, celebratory weekend. I stopped at the store and picked us up sandwich fixings for lunch. We ate together and packed some things so we could stay at my parent's house for the weekend. We left our place around 2:45 to pick my brother up from his work Christmas party at the Earl Browne Heritage Center.

We were sitting in front of the building, waiting for my brother when Chris received a call on his cell phone. Completely out of character for him, he answered it, even though it was an unknown number. I turned the radio down and heard pieces of what the man on the other end was saying. I heard Chris' responses. "No, I've been out of the country and haven't talked to him for a few weeks." And then I heard the man say, "they did everything they could to save him." and Chris turned to me and said, "He fucking died." As he kept listening to the man on the other end, I lost my shit. Completely and totally lost it. I couldn't breathe. I was shaking. I was crying and uttering things. It was unreal and to this day I feel almost embarassed about it. I handed a pen to Chris so he could write down some info, my hand shaking so badly I couldn't believe it was actually my hand. He was so calm. It was so unreal.

I got out of the car and tried to call my brother to tell him to come out of the building so we could leave. He didn't answer. I called my mom at work and told her. Chris called his mom at work and told her too. I got back in the car and my brother called Chris' phone from inside the party and said, "This is the GREATEST day EVER!!! Guess what just happened!!" and Chris told him "I can't talk right now" and handed the phone to me. I told Jason to come outside right now, and he couldn't really hear me, and I started screaming "Chris' dad died!! CHRIS' DAD IS DEAD!!!!" Jason hung up and came outside a few seconds later acting really quiet - it turns out he thought I said "Dad died."

I wish I could say the rest of the night was a blur, but it wasn't. I remember everything.

We drove from the Christmas party to my parent's house. We called my dad from the house on his cell phone - he was just leaving the funeral of a co-worker. Some 50th birthday.

I called back the number that had called Chris (the Hennepin County Investigator from the Medical Examinors Office) and had him re-tell the story and find out where Ron was. It turned out he was 1 mile away at North Memorial Hospital. He had been brought in at around 8:30 by the ambulance and was pronounced dead a little after 11:00 am. Apparently many attempts were made to bring him back, but none of them worked. He was never concious after collapsing on the side of the road. I was told that we could go to view his body at the hospital and was asked what time we wanted to come. We decided to go at 5:30.

When we arrived at the hospital we were ushered into a small waiting room outside the ER. A nurse came in and explained again what happened and asked if we had any questions. We didn't really know what to ask, we just kind of sat there.

Then they brought us to another area with chairs and pointed to the Sunset Room (I remember thinking, what a fucking stupid name for the room) and said, he is in there when you're ready.

Chris and I walked in and Ron was laying under a sheet that stopped at his shoulders. He didn't look like himself at all. He wasn't wearing his glasses, his watch, anything that he usually was. His mouth was slightly open and his hair was messed up. We didn't understand how this could be happening. It is still sometimes unreal.

It's been one year ago today since life changed; since Chris lost his dad, since we realized how fragile life is. It's hard to remember what it was like before. Many things have changed, but one thing remains the same - the love you feel and the good memories you've made stay with you and sustain you through the hard times.

Thank you, Ron, for the gift of your son. He is a great, kind and loving husband. Because of the father you were to him, he will be an amazing one to our kids someday. I only wish you could be here to take part in our lives - to see our first house, to help with the remodel, to be proud of your son for his accomplishments.

I know you are still here in spirit - and that you are smiling down on us. We love and miss you.

Closing

2010-12-09T20:03:00.000-06:00

Today we closed on our house - I am SO excited!!!

Can't wait to begin all of the work we have planned - new EVERYTHING!! Bring on the work and the spending!

The Adventures of Flat Daddy Ryan

2010-12-04T05:01:00.001-06:00

**I started writing this post on 2/3/10 at 7:01 pm, but for some reason it never posted and has been listed as a draft since then. I want to share it as it was written then, but posted now so that everyone gets a chance to see it***

Back when Ryan was deployed in April of 2009, Keeley and I had discussed some fun things to do for him when Keeley remembered that Erin Claire's sister, Megan had a "Flat Daddy" version of her husband who was overseas for her children. They took flat daddy everywhere they went so that he was always with them.

Kee and I thought that was pretty cool - and a mere $189 later, we were the proud mommys of our very own "Flat Daddy" which we lovingly called Flat Daddy Douche Bag, or FDDB for short.

FDDB had many adventures around the state of MN - He went to a vow renewal ceremony in Robbinsdale, my brother's wedding in St. Cloud, a pool party in Savage, a 90th birthday celebration in Red Wing, and countless bars around the state. Our main goal was to ensure Ryan that we were always thinking about him and that even though he may be missing out on things, he was still "there."

Flat Daddy Ryan was a crowd favorite and many strangers wanted to get in on the fun - posing with him all over.

I took all of the events we'd been documenting of the past year and made a photo book for Ryan so he could see all of the great times and events that he was a part of. I worked really hard to ensure it would be ready for him when he was on leave for Christmas. When he came to Matt and Kee's we had his cutout waiting for him inside the house when he came in from the garage. He seemed like he was surprised and really loved it. I think he was shocked that we would go to such lengths to do something like that.

Then we sat him down and he opened the book and was able to see all of the different pictures and events we had brought "him" to while he's been away. To see the book yourself, click here.

And of course, we had to get a pic or two of them together.
I hope the gift conveyed exactly what it was meant to, that he is loved and missed and we can't wait until he's home again for good so we can trade Flat Daddy in for the real deal.

Attention Target Shoppers: Man w/ Baby, Aisle 7

2010-12-03T05:06:00.000-06:00

I think it’s funny how women’s minds operate. Have you ever noticed how random women are attracted to a man with a baby in a public place? It’s as if they’re a moth to a flame, they can’t help but be drawn to it, often commenting about “how sweet and cute” it is. I mean really?? Is it still so abnormal for a man to actually do what he’s supposed to do, TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN CHILDREN? Women everywhere act like it is such a rare sight to be seen. I think it is sad that it is not as common of an occurrence as seeing a rundown patientless mom in a grocery store plotting her escape in her mind as her children throw tantrums and draw negative attention when she’s just trying to buy the food needed to feed them.

I admit, when Chris is reading to O, or playing with L, or talking to Sevea as he puts her jammies on, I am definitely happy to see the interaction. I think it reaffirms my decision to marry him and think of him as a father someday – but I’ll admit, I EXPECT those things. I expect him to be responsible and loving and gentle with them, I don’t think he should be praised or rewarded – women do it all the time.

Troy is a great example of what I’m talking about. He is a great dad. He dedicates his time to his family, interacts with Sevea on a daily basis, he WANTS to be with her. He performs all the same functions of parenting that Amy does. He is a true DAD. Maybe if there were more Troy’s in the world, women wouldn’t salivate over a man in a store with a baby.

Maybe...

Fight With Myself

2010-12-02T20:31:00.005-06:00

Sometimes I piss myself off.

I have a best friend and husband who is my everything. He is the person who knows me inside and out. He actually wants to spend time with me. And sometimes, I act like a jerk and push him away. I don't want to be smothered, or bothered. He can get on my nerves and I react harshly and meanly.

I'm so stupid.

I think about other people who are living my worst nightmare, and I hate myself for wasting one moment of my time with him fighting or being annoyed. Time I can never get back. Time I would regret if something were to happen to him. Time I didn't appreciate that he loves me and only wants to be close to me.

I tell myself I will change. I will act differently. I will teach myself a lesson and appreciate him every second of every day.

But, I know I won't. It's impossible. I'm only human. He can be impossible and aggrevating.

Instead I'll try to be appreciative and show him that I'm trying. Tell him that I love him as often as possible. Give him the kind of attention and affection he gives to me.

And try not to hate myself when I screw it up.

Dreaded Christmas Cards

2010-12-02T04:39:00.000-06:00

Every year I usually love making our Christmas cards. It's a time when I can look back on the past year and all of the things we did in search for those few great pics we want to share with fam and friends. Unfortunately, this year I am not much of a fan. We didn't take a lot of pics this year due to me not having my camera, and most of the ones we did take were when we had a few too many cocktails and were not presenting our best selves. It annoys me to think that the tradition is now becoming a dreaded task. I feel like for the first time ever I'm going to have to take a special picture just for our card...and we're SO not those people. Maybe I'll just send out the best of the worst - ha!! Now there's an idea...

That's What Friends Are For

2010-12-01T09:43:00.004-06:00

All day long we had been drinking and hanging in the pool, drinking and walking around the resort, drinking with dinner, drinking while playing cards, drinking while dancing to the band and then drinking while walking to our favorite end of the night destination; the salt water pool.The saltwater pool is fed by the ocean and it is in a remote area of the resort, tucked close to the ocean and behind our villa. At night (or early morning at 2am) there is literally no one around and hardly any light except from the moon. This is where we had decided to end a few of our nights - drunk and semi-naked in the pool. This night was no exception.

We returned from the "La Biblioteca" and had decided to grab what we could out of our mini bars (because we just HAD to keep drinking) and head down to the pool, strip down and jump on in. I will say now that we were all pretty wasted. We didn't fear anything, even though a few nights prior, Matt had decided to dive down towards the bottom to stick his ass in my face and ended up cutting his nose on coral and was bleeding out all over the place. Nope, that didn't deter us from jumping on in and doing it again.

We all (sans Keeley who said it was "too cold") were in the water swimming around and enjoying the light from the moon and the misty rain when Matt started screaming in pain and quickly climbed out of the pool. He started hobbling around screaming that his foot hurt, "Oh my GOD!! It hurts. It stings. My foot!! F&%*!!!! " Expletives were flying and everyone who remained in the water was laughing at him as he hobbled around grasping for his shorts while swearing and screaming.

Before anyone could get a good look at his injury, he hobbled to the edge of the pool and yelled at Chris to "Pee on my foot! PEE ON IT!!!" Chris, laughing, attempted to stand in the water and pee on Matt's foot, but just couldn't do it because he was laughing too hard. Matt started hobbling up towards the bar area with Keeley so she could get a look at it. We all were still in the water and then I started to get concerned. Matt doesn't complain about pain often, so the fact that he seemed that hurt was starting to worry me that maybe something was really wrong. I climbed out of the pool to investigate.

Matt and Kee returned from the bar area with him still hobbling, swearing, and screaming in pain and Keeley verified that he did have a red mark wrapped around the bottom to the top of his foot. It wasn't a cut or scrape - it looked more like a burn. Matt (still swearing in a tourettes like fashion) started screaming, "It's a blanking jellyfish!! It blanking hurts!!! Someone pee on me blankity blank blank. PEE ON ME BLANKING NOW!!!!!" Apparently, Kee was all peed out and Lindsey and Sam stayed in the water laughing. Chris had already tried and failed, so that left...me.

I walked over to where he was sprawled on one of the lounge chairs and said that I would pee on him, but everyone needed to look away. Matt took my towel, wrapped it around his face and said "This is going to be just as awkward for me as it is for you. I don't want to see it just like you don't want to do it. It Blanking HURTS!!! PEE ON ME NOW, JUST BLANKING DO IT!!"

I made everyone turn around and I dropped by swimsuit bottoms, crouched over Matt's foot, and peed. I tried to pee my best for him, but the circumstances were difficult because I could hear everyone laughing and he was moaning under the towel.

When I had squeezed out every last drop, Matt started murmering from under the towel, "Are you done? Is that it? It felt a little better but it's starting to hurt again. Blank!!! You Blanking drunks have no amonia left in your pee because you're all too blanking drunk!! BLANK!!!"

I pulled my suit back on, glad that I could offer even a moment of temporary relief, but also disappointed in myself that I couldn't offer up a better quality urine to alleviate his pain.

We walked back to the villa and Chris and I went to Matt and Kee's room. He was still hobbling and swearing and still convinced he had stepped on a jellyfish. Keeley tried to google the effects of a jellyfish sting on her ipod touch, and Matt stuck his foot in a bucket of ice.

We never really could be sure what happened, so we have decided to say that he was stung by a
"sea creature."

Mysteriously, the next day the pain was gone and the mark had disappeared. But the memory of me urinating on Matt is with us for the rest of our lives.

Hey, isn't that what friends are for???

Back to Life, Back To Reality

2010-11-29T05:47:00.000-06:00

I hate coming back from vacation. Sure, I miss my friends and family, but I hate the nasty, dark, cold, and wintery weather of MN and the fact that I have to go back to working for a living. I would MUCH rather travel and lay around and sun bathe and drink fruity cocktails than try to figure out what is happening with my frozen novelties sets at SUPERVALU or sit in front of my computer for 9+ hours everyday.

I think I am in mourning for my vacation...

Be Thankful

2010-11-27T21:56:00.001-06:00

Thanksgiving this year was great. We combined Chris' mom and grandma into our family traditions at my parent's house. It was quite the turnout with 21 people this year. Uncle Dick, Aunt Nancy, Kelly, Becky, Katie, Jordan, Tyler, Gramma Ida, Grandpa, Archie, Mom, Dad, Jason, April, Jim, Jenni, Matt, Chris, Joyce, Grandma Marie, and me. The only one missing was Taylor, who spent the holiday with her dad.

My mom did a great job with the turkey, green bean caserole, and stuffing. Aunt Nancy made perfect whipped potatoes, and my grandma baked like a fiend providing enough Lefse to feed a third world country and enough pie to feed us for 3 weeks.

As usual, we enjoyed the many bottles of wine, which help me cope with the off comments that my "uncle" Archie manages to say. This year, for some reason, his target was me. To spare you the long stories, let's just say that I learned that I spend all of my husbands money..."No wait, you're married now so I guess it's yours too." and my favorite comment about how he's never hit a girl but he might have to "punch me in the face." Oh, the love I feel on the holidays.

Really, though, Thanksgiving is a great time to reflect on the past year and give thanks for the blessings in life. I feel thankful for my husband, who loves me unconditionally despite all of my flaws. I feel thankful for my amazing parents who gave me everything I could ever need to be a self sufficient, responsible person. I feel thankful for my siblings who made my life fun and interesting and who I enjoy laughing with at every family function - it truly wouldn't be the same without them. I am thankful for my mother in law Joyce, who is an amazing person and has done so much for both Chris and me. I am thankful for my entire family and in-law families. I am thankful for my friends who are always there for me and whom I love so very much.

I am thankful and blessed and thank God for everything he's given to me in my life.

Happy Thanksgiving and may the year ahead be filled with love and happiness.

We're Back!!!

2010-11-24T17:25:00.001-06:00

We made it back from this

To this

UGH!!! I hate winter.

At least I have some good stories to come from our amazing trip. Stay tuned :)

Vacation

2010-11-17T00:14:00.001-06:00

I can hardly believe that in a few hours I will be on a plane to Mexico. I feel like I have been so busy that this just crept up on me. I finished packing awhile ago and then continued to work for awhile and am ready to hit the pillow and sleep for less than 4 hours before getting up to go to the airport. UGH!!

Now I am starting to allow myself to be excited. I hope I can fall asleep...

Music Mondays: "Back To December"

2010-11-15T20:38:00.001-06:00

I love Taylor Swift. Mainly because she writes her own songs. This one is one of the best, in my opinion, because I think anyone can relate to it. I know I can...

Neglected

2010-11-14T00:28:00.003-06:00

I have neglected this blog due in large part to the fact that I have been working around the clock trying to prepare for my impending vacation and hopefully the purchase of our new home. I feel like I'm going nuts. I haven't been able to talk much to my friends recently, I am so consumed with trying to get work and our affairs in order so I can hopefully relax and truly enjoy my time in Mexico.

I will eventually get everything updated and out here...I have about 12 unpublished posts just waiting for me to hit approve!!

Here's to hoping a cocktail or 25 will help me to fall asleep and not lay awake stressed!!!

Party Hardy

2010-11-08T20:14:00.001-06:00

So just because I'm getting older doesn't mean I have to be tame on my birthday. If anything, it is an excuse to party harder. This year was no exception. Keeley threw Matt and me a joint shindig and the turn out was awesome!! I had a great time and that helped ease the pain of sliding into my last year of 20s. Ugh...it sucks getting old!!!!

Thanks to everyone who came out and for the amazing party, Kee :)

29...

2010-11-07T20:10:00.000-06:00

And SOOOOO Grown up!!!

"Wait For You" - True M.C. And Cheezy (Feat. Jenni Crandall.)

2010-11-06T11:12:00.003-05:00

Since my brother, Matt, broke his leg he has developed a new way of occupying his time - he writes and records raps with his friend Michael. This time, the guys added my sister Jenni on vocals, and I have to say, they are pretty talented together. This is also one of the only raps I would post because it does not include profanity or vulgarity - woohoo for wholesome fun!!

What?? I am almost 30 now!!!

**please forgive Michael for his inproper use of grammer and spelling in this video. LOL!

The Evils of Facebook

2010-11-06T11:02:00.003-05:00

My husband is one of the last people I know who does not have a Facebook account. He believes it is evil and refuses to ever give in.

This morning, I woke up, checked my phone and saw that I had an email. Lo and behold, it was a FB alert notifying me that Chris Rotell wanted to be my friend. What??

So I looked at the profile (which was complete with picture and very factual details) and wondered, had he gone back on his vow to never get into myface?

As I read his favorite quotes, likes, interests and bio - I started to think someone else was behind this.

"Why give 100 percent when 35 will still get you paid and laid?"

"Im going to Sha-booms"

I am launching a full fledged investigation; first to be interrogated - Jamboni!!!

Fortune

2010-11-05T09:18:00.001-05:00

My fortune from the fortune cookie I just ate for breakfast (don't judge!!) read, "The best times of your life have yet to be lived."

I'll take it!!

My Brother, My Friend

2010-11-02T15:54:00.007-05:00

Jason has been around as long as I can remember. My very first memory is him being born five days shy of my second birthday.

As we grew up together, we became very different people. I was a rule follower, he a rule breaker. I was extremely social, he was more shy. But we always seemed to find a way to be good friends, loyal siblings, and most of all to have fun together. I laugh more around him than anyone. I get more annoyed around him than anyone. But I have a strong bond and intense love for him that has only grown with each passing year.

Happy 27th Birthday, Jason. This next year will be filled with excitement and firsts as you become a father, and no matter what the future brings or challenges you face , I hope you know I am here for you. I love you!

Music Mondays: "You Are The Best Thing"

2010-11-01T06:00:00.001-05:00

Good Eats

2010-10-31T21:00:00.007-05:00

I started a blog to share a recipe a day, hopefully consecutively for a year. I love to cook and share tasty recipes and secrets for a great meal. If you want to check it out, click here.

Thing One and Thing Two

2010-10-29T05:00:00.000-05:00

It was spirit week leading up to homecoming recently at Jenni and Matt's school. One of the theme days was Twins. I just had to share how cute it was that Jen made them matching shirts and wrapped her leg to match Matt's cast and then borrowed a wheelchair all day so they could be truly Twins for the day. Because she was born first, Jen was Thing One and Matt was Thing Two :)

Good Times

2010-10-28T16:50:00.005-05:00

I was looking through some pictures today and realized how funny it is that a picture can bring you back to a great moment in time and really capture all of the feelings and emotions of the exact moment when it was snapped. For some reason, someone has a camera and captures great moments between me and Amy...the funniest part is that none of them are staged!

I love you Amy Bo :)

21 Days

2010-10-27T17:04:00.000-05:00

In exactly 21 days from today I will be in Mexico!!! I can hardly wait. I am so looking forward to a long and warm vacation, complete with cocktails and sun!!! Woo hoo!!

You Are The Best Thing

2010-10-26T05:00:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I'm crazy. Sometimes I cry.

I am clumsy, I am forgetful.

Sometimes I am mean.

You somehow see past that.

You think I'm pretty.

You think I'm funny.

You think I'm smart.

I think I've fooled you. :>)

You love me. I love you.

That's all I need.

You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Music Mondays: "32 Flavors"

2010-10-25T06:37:00.001-05:00

This song was an anthem for me when I was younger - it was everything I wanted to be; strong, confidant, true to myself. I completely forgot about it until recently and it brought me back to the first time I heard it in my church basement at a lock-in. I've come so far since then, but I still strive to be the girl I hoped to be...it's a work in progress :)

32 Flavors

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and i have done well by their names
just the kindness i've lavished on strangers
is more than i can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so i would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
til i'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying back

i'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and i would like to state for the record
i did everything that i could do
i'm not saying that i'm a saint
i just don't want to live that way
no, i will never be a saint
but i will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

You Know Why!!

2010-10-24T23:23:00.001-05:00

Sometimes boys are dumb and they deserve to get punched in the junk :)

Reconnecting

2010-10-20T22:36:00.004-05:00

Tonight I went to an old friend's for dinner. It had been awhile since I had seen her - almost two years. Our relationship had been through some rocky times, and we had chosen to keep our distance. We had kept in contact sporatically, and had made attempts to reconnect, but tonight was the first time we were able to make it work.

It was crazy how it wasn't uncomfortable or weird - it felt like old times and like not much had changed. We chatted easily over dinner she had cooked, which was AMAZING, and caught up on the ins and outs of life.

I truly had a good time and was happy that we both were able to make it work. It's nice to have that connection with someone who knows you from "back in the day." There are certain things that go without saying, and I know that I truly forgive her, and myself, for the things that happened in the past.

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart." ~Elisabeth Foley

Music Mondays: " Live Like We're Dying"

2010-10-18T06:15:00.000-05:00

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you,
What would you wish you would've done

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution,
There'll no one on the line, yeah

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

You never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash till it's head on
Why do we think we're right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying, oh, like we're dying..

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying..

Sweet and Sassy

2010-10-17T18:27:00.002-05:00

I was able to spend some time with Sevea yesterday while her parents went to a wedding. It was awesome because she has become much more talkative in the last month, even since her 2nd birthday. Keeley, ECF, Olivia, Stella, Sevea and I had the ultimate girls day/night complete with make believe, book reading, and fake telephone conversations. It is such an amazing thing to see a child grow from a little tiny baby into a spunky, sassy and sweet little girl - especially one with an appetite. I love making dinner for Sevea, because there is nothing (yet) that I have put in front of her that she hasn't eaten. Last night was no exception - I made up some Mexican pizza, creamed corn and fruit cocktail and she ate it up like nobodies business.

She also listens so well, says please and thank you, and doesn't throw a fit before bedtime. She loves to snuggle, which is just my favorite because it reminds me of when she was little and I would hold her while she slept.

I feel so fortunate to be able to spend time with her and can't wait to do it again :)

Snuggle Time

2010-10-15T18:15:00.005-05:00

Last night we watched O & L so Erin Claire and Tim could get in a much needed date night. It was a lot of fun to spend some quality time w/ the girls. It is always adorable to watch how cute O is with her Uncle Chris. She bosses him around and asks him to snuggle - it is adorable! I know he'll be a great dad because of how sweet he is with both of these girls. He is super wrapped around their tiny fingers.

Go Team Rowitz!

2010-10-14T15:36:00.001-05:00

We actually managed to get a cute picture of the four of us from a wedding we went to in August - Matt's even smiling!!

Chippewa Falls Fun

2010-10-13T05:33:00.000-05:00

The Odd One Out

2010-10-12T08:39:00.000-05:00

I've been thinking about writing this for awhile, but it is difficult because I don't want my words or thoughts to be misconstrued in any way, shape or form. So, here goes...

Alot of my friends are pregnant. It is exhilerating, exciting...and depressing. Ok, so I said it, I am slightly depressed about it. I am trying to be honest about it in the nicest of ways.

I feel such a mix of emotions because I am so many things - excited to be a part of the experience, excited to have future little ones around, excited to be an actual biological aunt for the first time, excited to be an auntie again to all of my friend's children...but I also feel left out, isolated, and kind of sad.

It is a hard place to be.

I have always been the type of person who does things because I want to. I don't think big life decisions should be made just because everyone else is doing it. Things like marriage, children, etc. should be done when a couple is truly ready. We aren't there yet as far as being ready. That doesn't mean that I don't wish we were. It would be so great to be pregnant with my friends. To be able to share that experience and talk about it with them would be ideal. To have my kids and theirs grow up the same ages - how cool would that be? I'm kind of jealous that they get to have that.

I don't want to be the outcast, the one who "doesn't understand."

I just want to be excited, happy, and comfortable being where I'm at - thrilled to be an auntie and looking forward to what the future holds for all of us.

Music Mondays: "Fade Away"

2010-10-11T21:15:00.001-05:00

When Chris and I were choosing our first dance song, we knew right away that this was it. We aren't the conventional, sappy songed couple, and we wanted a song that conveyed that. I'm sure alot of the guests at our wedding were confused by this choice, but it was absolutely perfect for us.

Quality Time

2010-10-03T20:34:00.004-05:00

Visiting my brother, Jason and his wife April and step-daughter Taylor in Sioux Falls was a ton of fun. We went to a couple of great bars, checked out Falls Park, and spent some quality time shopping and hanging out. It's funny how little you get of one on one time when you are part of a big family like ours. We really enjoyed ourselves and can't wait to go back soon.

Stay Classy, Sioux Falls

2010-10-02T13:44:00.002-05:00

I couldn't help but share this. I was amazed by the fact that you could satisfy many of your needs in one quick vending machine stop - anyone need some 5 hour energy w/ their Trojans?

Run and Tell That, Homeboy!!

2010-09-30T12:01:00.001-05:00

When I saw this, I couldn't help but to share it for two reasons; one, because rape is horrific crime and I appreciate seeing a news station discuss it, and two, because this guy is the best news interview I've ever seen.

Run and Tell That, Homeboy!! - The Song

2010-09-30T11:59:00.000-05:00

Of course, someone had to take it to a whole other level by creating a song, which I just had to share as well.

Music Mondays: "The Only Exception"

2010-09-27T06:00:00.000-05:00

Suck It, Sunday!!

2010-09-26T20:20:00.001-05:00

I hate Sundays. I think because it is just a long drawn out day that reminds me that tomorrow, hell starts all over. I love watching football, I love taking a nap, but I hate that feeling in my stomach all day long knowing another stressful work week is about to begin and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

*sigh*

Forgiving

2010-09-25T21:54:00.001-05:00

"The secret to forgiving everything, is to understand nothing."
~George Bernard Shaw~

Real Life

2010-09-23T17:30:00.000-05:00

Now that I am closer to 30, all of my friends are pretty much married. Most have or are about to have children.

The magic has worn off. The honeymoon period is over. Real life has taken over. And it's hard.

Friends have divorced, separated, cheated, fallen out of love, fought, made up, struggled. We all have moments where we look at ourselves and think...this is it...is this it??

The thing about marriage is that everyone takes it differently. Some people feel that it is forever, no matter what. You stick it out, even if you're unhappy. I believe this to a certain extent. I believe in the vows I took. I want to believe that my marriage is forever. I have faith that it will be. I feel fortunate to be married to my best friend, butI know that my relationship has had ups and downs and that it will continue to take work.

I also believe that in a marriage you deserve respect, love, friendship and understanding. You can only give so much. If both people are not as committed to making it work and giving 110%, then it is impossible to hold it together alone.

I wonder where life will take me, my friends, my famiy, and our relationships. I hope that no matter what, everyone I love continues to have the relationships they deserve.

Seventeen

2010-09-22T20:22:00.004-05:00

Happy 17th Birthday, Jen and Matt! Love you both so much!!

Beautiful Soul

2010-09-20T21:26:00.001-05:00

I love my sister. She is beautiful - inside and out.

Music Mondays: "Careless Whisper"

2010-09-20T20:24:00.001-05:00

Feliz Cumpleanos!

2010-09-19T07:00:00.000-05:00

Happy Birthday to two of my bestest friends. I wish you both a year filled with the love and happiness that you so deserve. I celebrate you today because you have brought such joy, support, fun and love into my life.

I love you both!

Broken Bones and Artificial Knees

2010-09-18T20:20:00.001-05:00

On Friday, Sept. 10th, my little brother, Matt broke his leg in two places playing football.

Unfortunately, this has put him in a cast up to his thigh and has left him wheel chair or crutches bound until December or January. The worst part for him is that he will not be able to play hockey until January. I feel so bad for him. Not only is it painful, it is also critical that he continue to be careful, or the bone can shift and not heal properly. Hopefully that won't happen, but if it does, surgery might be necessary to correct.

I've been trying to talk with him every day and visit him often to keep him entertained and his spirits up. Poor kid :(

Then on the 15th, my mother-in-law had knee replacement surgery on her left leg. It was the first time either of us had been back to a hospital since we went to see his dad after he passed away. It seemed like forever, but she came out of surgery very well, with minimal bleeding. Unfortunately, this is an extremely painful process that requires extensive rehab. We transferred her to a rehab center where she will have to stay 7-10 days. Hopefully there she will receive pain management and the therapy needed for her to be better than new.

Please keep both Matt and Joyce in your thoughts and prayers for a quick and thorough recovery. Until then, I will be on double duty to hopefully make it easier on them!

Assy

2010-09-14T20:38:00.002-05:00

A few years ago, our friend Matt created the word "Assy." Assy is a perfect way to explain how one feels when they're sick, or hungover, or just plain exhausted. Matt's wife, Keeley, hates this word. I LOVE it.

I am feeling super assy right now. I have a sore throat, a fever, and can't seem to sleep enough. I hate feeling assy...but I love being able to use the word, especially around Kee.

I hope I don't feel assy for much longer...ugh. But if I do, I'll be sure to call Keeley and let her know.

Silly Little Traditions

2010-09-14T06:00:00.000-05:00

Tradition

tra·di·tion [ trə dísh'n ]

1. custom or belief: a long-established action or pattern of behavior in a community or group of people, often one that has been handed down from generation to generation
2. body of customs: a body of long-established customs and beliefs viewed as a set of precedents
3. handing down of customs: the handing down of patterns of behavior, practices, and beliefs that are valued by a culture

When you make the decision to get married, especially the decision to have a wedding, tradition is a guest that you usually end up seating at the head table. Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue…you hear words like this and you follow them with hardly any understanding of their origins. It’s amazing how throwing a bouquet or tossing a garter, dancing a “first dance” with your new husband or wife becomes a normal part of your day – unquestioned, just something that HAS to be done.

My wedding was no exception. I obeyed these traditions. I carried an old hanky my mother in law gave me, I wore blue underwear, I borrowed a bracelet, and had a new dress and veil. Our wedding went off exactly as planned, the weather was beautiful, the day everything I had hoped for.

I threw my bouquet and we tossed the garter to all of the “single” hopefuls, and the recipients of these items were excited when they were the “winners”.

Do people really, truly believe in the power of the bouquet and garter ? Was it something that had proven to come true over time that people waited, hoping to be the lucky ones??

I've been to weddings where the bouquet is a hot item that will be fought over. At my wedding, the recipient of the bouquet ended up with a very badly scraped knee which she had to see a physician over. Then I realized she became engaged recently. And the man who caught the garter was recently married (and no one EVER thought that would happen!!)

Maybe traditions like this DO work. Or maybe they just make for really great pictures :)

Music Mondays: "Tiny Dancer-Live"

2010-09-13T21:04:00.001-05:00

MTV...Nobody Cares About Your Period

2010-09-09T06:00:00.000-05:00

Can someone please explain to me why MTV finds it necessary for a group of chicks to talk about their experiences with their periods? Can you say RIDICULOUS? Newsflash, it sucks for everyone! Nobody needs to talk about it.

I was trying to find the commercials to share here, but ran across this video and thought it was better.

Did anyone else besides me and this girl see the video on MTV? What did you think?

Sons of Anarchy

2010-09-08T23:04:00.003-05:00

I forgot to mention, the best part of this entire week is the fact that I am able to watch Sons Of Anarchy again. I have waited way too damn long to be able to watch my favorite show. It is insane and sounds so pathetic, but during the season I serious live for Tuesday nights.

Be warned, if you call between the hour of 9 and 10pm, I will be sending you straight to voicemail.

Lame, yes. But I am admitting it, which has to count for something.

Check it out. You won't be disappointed.

http://www.fxnetworks.com/shows/originals/soa/

Why Me?

2010-09-07T22:20:00.001-05:00

I swear what I am about to write is not a lie. While I was writing my last blog post, my husband decided that he would come try to torture me. This is what he normally does when I isolate myself for ten minutes. I could lay next to him on the couch or in bed watching TV for 30 minutes + and he won't acknowledge my presence, but if I leave his sight, he suddenly becomes interested in my whereabouts. I can't go into the bathroom to pee without him suddenly wanting to talk.

Right now he came into the guest room where I do work (and write this amazing blog) and decided to kiss me. But he said he wanted to kiss me "not on the lips. Kissing on the lips is for lovers only, not friends." He then kissed me all over my face, neck and ear in an annoying manner, laughing about how funny he was to imply we're only friends. He then picks my strapless bra out of the laundry pile and tells me he's going to wear it while he works out, just to "break it in." He then leaves the room singing in his soprano voice and is sure to moon me before completely leaving the room. I continue to write and try to ignore him, although it is kind of funny.

Sorry ladies, he's all mine. Try not to be jealous.

Music Mondays: Colbie Caillat "Magic - Live"

2010-09-06T16:03:00.000-05:00

The Last Few Weeks...

2010-09-06T08:42:00.000-05:00

I haven't written lately at all - it's been a busy last few weeks and I have had a lot on my mind. I am not saying there's nothing to write about, just not enough time or motivation to do it.

So here is my quick attempt at an update...

First, my little bro, Jim, turned 20 on August 26th. CRAZYNESS!! We had a really nice dinner to celebrate at Outback Steakhouse and it was really great to spend time together even though we were missing my brother Jason, sister-in-law April, her daughter Taylor, and my hubby.

Then Keeley and I took our mom's on a trip to Chippewa Falls in August 28th to celebrate their 50th Birthdays. It was a great time. We went to two wineries and sampled some great wines, attempted to make our way through a corn maze, ate dinner at a beautiful and unique restaurant, and then hit the bars for a crazy night on the town.

It was truly a blast and I had such a great time being able to let loose and appreciate my fantastic mom.

Labor Day weekend we went to the Apple River Family Campground in Somerset, WI and were fortunate enough to have Keeley and Matt, Carissa and Andrew, Amy and Troy and Sevea join us. We fell in LOVE with this campground and are planning to replace our annual Wapiti camping experience with this place. The managers are amazing and the sites are well kept and beautiful and right on the Apple River. Sevea had her first true camping experience and loved it!! We had so much fun I forgot to take pictures!!

Now it's time for fantasy football to start and I can hardly wait to dominate...

A girl can dream, right??

Happy Birthday, ECF!!

2010-09-05T21:09:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday to one of the most amazing mothers, friends, and women I have ever known. My life is much richer having you a part of it. Thank you for your friendship. I love you!

Five Years Ago Today

2010-08-28T14:45:00.004-05:00

Chris popped the question, and I said YES!

Music Mondays: "Stuck Like Glue"

2010-08-23T19:14:00.001-05:00

I Miss My Friend

2010-08-17T17:40:00.004-05:00

Sometimes people are chicken shit and just can't bring themselves to say or do what their heart wants them to. I have been that person for awhile now.

I miss my friend. I miss hanging out, drinking into the wee hours of the night. I miss listening to our favorite songs and playing card games that freshmen in college are just learning. I miss the late night talks and confessions that would never happen under different circumstances. I just miss knowing that this person is there.

I miss my friend.